Being diagnosed with the famous breast cancer in 2011 is past bad news for me. At the time I found it really hard to go on with life just as I used to before.
Life seemed different, shorter.
I got the opportunity to notice finer details than I did before— as it had dawned on me that, in life anything can happen without a moments notice.
Most of the days going through breast cancer were outright brutal— especially the days after getting chemo. The day of chemo was pretty uneventful.
I thank God the cancer was in the early stages even though it was fast growing and in my lymph nodes.
Making a final decision to go through chemo was challenging for me and the thought of it just made me shiver. I knew that I had no other option and I had to face my fears.
Friends and family were right by me through it all, always praying and reassuring me. Some people felt sorry that I had to go through it. But we all know as Christians some things just happen.
I did not like the whole idea and as I thought about the days leading up to the first chemo treatment— these were some of thoughts running through my mind:
- I’m going to lose all my hair (well I never did like my hair anyway, it’s to fine)
- my immune system is going to be weakened
- I’m not going to able to eat
- what if I can’t sleep
- what if I get sick from the chemo
- what if my white blood count is too low
Despite all the questions going on in my mind, I knew, that I knew my heavenly Father was with me in an almost tangible way. I didn’t just want to cope— but survive and thrive during this time and I knew this was going to leave me stronger than I ever was before.
A verse from the Bible gave me hope during that time (2011).
“We are confident that God is able to orchestrate everything to work toward something good and beautiful when we love Him and accept His invitation to live according to His plan” (Romans 8:28).
I’ll end with this quote by Corrie Ten Boom,
“Although the threads of my life have often seemed knotted, I know, by faith, that on the other side of the embroidery there is a crown..”